OH MY

So, a big slice of my heart is gone since my daughter and I are not really speaking.
To some degree my fault, I shouldn't burden her with my problems, but, I don't think I deserved the back lash from she or her husband. He was right to defend her,and i admire that but at the same time, hurtful things were said and i have forgiven but still trying to forget.... it's healing, day by day, i don't cry as much anymore,i am just sad....Will do all in my power to continue to see my beautiful boys as much as i can, i just am not ready to do the same for her or for him
Prayers,lots of them every day, that i can go on from this with or without them

APRIL

Spring is here, my favorite time of year. Everything is fresh and new, rains have come and gone and come and gone..

So much going on..... the boys are growing way too fast, now 6 1/2 and 4
Tara is still at home and the family seem's to be benefitting immensely in all areas.

Facebook has been so much fun for me... I am in touch with so many people and it is just a fun way to see what is happening in my friends and their childrens lives.

Real Estate school - hmmmm - still struggling with taking the test --- some more crash courses are needed before I take that plunge

Happily learning to meditate and calm my inner self

Reflection -

Hmmmmm so much to say and no words can describe it.....
Feeling better since I adopted my "mantra" of LGLG Let Go Let God!
as each day passes I repeat the mantra and calm my inner self that God has the master plan for all things and there is nothing I can do to change it
Worrying about what might be can not help, but preparing for what might come is always a good idea...

Winter blues

so Christmas is over, the New Year is approaching quickly (like 24 plus hours) I am not much on making resolutions so I won't again this year.......
I will try and practice Breathing In and Breathing Out, I will try and quit smoking (again)- I will try and be patient - I will try and see some good in everyone (I promise myself I will try)
The boys are growing too quickly ..... their Mom just turned 29 (oh how quickly those years have passed) I am for the most part Happy with the year 2009 and can't wait to see what happens in 2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

THE HOLIDAYS ARE NEARING

I have taken a new approach to the holidays and I feel much better about it. We have decided that gift exchanges are out and love and togetherness are in ... Home made gifts will do just fine, the boys will get their toys etc but the adults will abstain. Too many people broke and no sense in using credit cards just to try and put a smile on someone's face.... all over rated anyway....kids are important and I will fill their faces with gladness.....

Hmmmm.. the foot get's better than not so much.... after 4 months I have come to beleive that it may never be what it was before and i need to accept it and move on.

My daughter seem's to be adjusting to her role as stay at home Mom, the boys are adjusting as well. It's tough on the little one since he has no "friends" to play with as yet but they are working on that as well.

Trying to help my friend who lost her son has proven to be very tough. She is a very focused woman and once she focues on something there is nothing anyone can do to take her off that course. I will just stand by and hope that the pieces of her world don't fall apart again and if they do be ready to help put them back again.

Work is work, nothing much changes, I still have a job so that is enough for me right now

THE SUMMER OF THE FOOT HAS TURNED TO FALL

So- the foot is finally after 10 weeks healing,I think it's because I had the healing hands of my good friend work on them this past weekend, but whatever the reason I am no longer wrapped and packaged.... given the okay to start to walk and put my heels on again,,,,,,,, hallelujah!

My daughter is adjusting well to being home with the boys, and they seem to enjoy it as well.The little one need's some "kid" company and I think she will need some "adult" conversation fairly soon....

Sad news that my dear friend is still grieiving greatly over the loss of her son. Time heals but I can not imagine what she is going thru.