SO MUCH HAPPENING

So the property went up for sale the first part of July and has been sold.
I have been on an emotional roller coaster since. I have cried, and cried, held a pity party, boosted myself up, let myself down and started all over again. In the end I am still the same person. Part of me want's to move, to start fresh somewhere else, the other part of me is having a hard time letting go of a house that I spend so many years in..... Tara and Jacob were brought to this house from the hospital.... Tara spend most of her growing up years in this house, the boys love playing in the yard..... I can take the memories with me ...
hopefully i can hang on until the first of the year.... if not, i will continue packing and sorting and crying and looking forward....

OH MY

So, a big slice of my heart is gone since my daughter and I are not really speaking.
To some degree my fault, I shouldn't burden her with my problems, but, I don't think I deserved the back lash from she or her husband. He was right to defend her,and i admire that but at the same time, hurtful things were said and i have forgiven but still trying to forget.... it's healing, day by day, i don't cry as much anymore,i am just sad....Will do all in my power to continue to see my beautiful boys as much as i can, i just am not ready to do the same for her or for him
Prayers,lots of them every day, that i can go on from this with or without them

APRIL

Spring is here, my favorite time of year. Everything is fresh and new, rains have come and gone and come and gone..

So much going on..... the boys are growing way too fast, now 6 1/2 and 4
Tara is still at home and the family seem's to be benefitting immensely in all areas.

Facebook has been so much fun for me... I am in touch with so many people and it is just a fun way to see what is happening in my friends and their childrens lives.

Real Estate school - hmmmm - still struggling with taking the test --- some more crash courses are needed before I take that plunge

Happily learning to meditate and calm my inner self

Reflection -

Hmmmmm so much to say and no words can describe it.....
Feeling better since I adopted my "mantra" of LGLG Let Go Let God!
as each day passes I repeat the mantra and calm my inner self that God has the master plan for all things and there is nothing I can do to change it
Worrying about what might be can not help, but preparing for what might come is always a good idea...